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Pesannya untuk kami

Lepas Shubuh pengeras suara masjid dibunyikan
setengah jam setelah shalat berakhir
Aku tahu ini pasti pengumuman itu,
"Telah berpulang ke rahmatullah Bapak fulan bin fulan...."

Aku masih di sajadah sambil menyimak
Telepon genggamku bergetar, sebuah pesan masuk,
"Telah berpulang ke rahmatullah, ayah kami..."
Aku terhenyak, lama menatap layar

Pelajaran apa ini, Allah?

Malam sebelumnya, keluarga berkumpul
Tepat 7 hari sebelumnya nenek kami berpulang di waktu subuh
Di waktu yang sama saat aku duduk Jumat pagi ini, menyimak berita duka yang datang silih berganti

Nenek berpulang ketika aku sedang di tempat dengan perbedaan waktu 2 jam lebih awal
Aku sedang bersiap di lobby hotel, 2 jam lagi pesawatku terbang membawaku pulang
When the news came, I stopped, was this real? And I did not cry
Teteh bilang, "kamu bisa dipercepat pulangnya?"
Tidak, hanya ada satu penerbangan ke Jakarta. Aku tiba sore

Aku tidak bisa melihat beliau
Semua sudah rapi ketika aku tiba di rumah
I felt nothing, as if she's still here

............................................

"Allah.. Allah..", Emak merintih, sepupuku yang tidur bersamanya terhentak saat beliau sedang menjemput maut.

"Wajah emak seperti tersenyum, teh..", keponakanku yang manis bercerita ketika aku tanya tentang saat terakhir beliau

Hanya itu kenangan terakhirku, cerita dari mulut ke mulut


كَذَٰلِكَ نَقُصُّ عَلَيْكَ مِنْ أَنۢبَآءِ مَا قَدْ سَبَقَ ۚ وَقَدْ ءَاتَيْنَٰكَ مِن لَّدُنَّا ذِكْرًا Thus, [O Muhammad], We relate to you from the news of what has preceded. And We have certainly given you from Us the Qur'an.Qur'an: Taa-Haa (20:99) 

مَّنْ أَعْرَضَ عَنْهُ فَإِنَّهُۥ يَحْمِلُ يَوْمَ ٱلْقِيَٰمَةِ وِزْرًا Whoever turns away from it - then indeed, he will bear on the Day of Resurrection a burden,Qur'an: Taa-Haa (20:100)

"Ka, catat Emak udah khatam ke berapa disini (sambil menunjuk mushaf Al Quran-nya). Nanti biar pada bisa terusin ya sampai khatam.. supaya anak cucu Emak pada doyan baca Al Quran"

2 ayat Al Quran di atas adalah ayat-ayat terakhir yang dibaca Emak
Bacaan beliau berhenti di ayat 130-an
Dan kami diminta melanjutkannya hingga khatam

Aku tersentak ketika sepupuku, Irsan, meminta saya untuk membaca arti ayat-ayat yang harus kami lanjutkan, sejak Thaa-ha hingga awal Al Anbiya
Dan rangkaian puzzle pun tersusun tiba-tiba

Ayat-ayat inilah warisan paling berharga kami, tentang kecintaan terhadap Al Quran
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This Dzuhijjah, we hear so many losses. In Mina, Aviastar Masamba, my grandmother, my neighbors, yellow flags in random streets, as if God is calling so many lives this month

The month of Hajj.

To all the beautiful souls, khusnul khotimah, InsyaAllah. 

**Part of this writing was written on her bed. Reminiscing the old days when she always held my hand tightly, wishing me but the best in dunya and akhirah.

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